you create your own universe...

              Sometimes I feel so lonely that I cant think about anything else... Usually I am trying to kill that feeling with meeting with my friends, dating with a man, reading books, watching movies... whatever it takes....
            Well, even more, not to be lonely (read bored) I am studying foreign languages, building career, traveling...
             It is interesting that talking to another human does not make you less lonely. Well, people can get some relief but some people are not that interesting, another people are not that interesting when you get to know them better. Even interesting people can't solve all your problem, becouse nobody knows better than you what you want.
            Sometimes I think that only set of interesting activities and hobbies can save me from the lonleness and boredom. If I am engaged into them together with interesting people it is amazing. If no I have to plan out my way in the space alone. And during this way I meet people who are moving in the same direction...
           At some point I am getting tired from the new hobby and change the direction. In a couple of weeks I feel like I am surrownded by completely different people.
           Old friends stay of course. But it is impossible to save that old connection we had when we were doing things together... It is sad, but anyway you do not have a lot time to regret, you are already in a completely new universe - universe you created yourself. Which you based on your own choices and decisions...
            Probably five years ago you have seen your life completely different. Probably you planned that with more or less ambitions. Probably you were thinking that different people will be around. And after that you ask yourself if that was really you who is in charge of your life. You and your real priorities or the chain of spontaneous decisions you had to make because of the curcumstances?

AND God stepped out on space,
And He looked around and said,
“I’m lonely—
I’ll make me a world.”
And far as the eye of God could see
Darkness covered everything,
Blacker than a hundred midnights
Down in a cypress swamp. James Weldon Johnson (1871–1938)

just some curious facts:

1) Today a man with MBA degree, 3 years of work experience and wgo is going to get married soon asked me if the Soviet Union still exists. Good looking man btw...No comments any more :-)
2) Since I am always getting an eye infections here it occured to me that maybe Germany is called so because there are so many germs here :-) \no offence it is just a joke\
3)  "Nobody knows anything... it’s a guess – and, if you’re lucky, an educated one." (Goldman, 1983)
Found this amazing quotation during my marketing research....so true...You never have all the relevant information in advance. And that's why the most of choices we are making in our life are guesses, so we try to justify them using our "not that perfect, but we are not gonna to admit that" judgement and the survey of close people who usually have no idea what we really want". That's a scary thought.
4) even the language bareer could not hide his stupidity (q -mine)
5) What an artificial limitation! (about the 2-dimensional model in perception - marketing)
6) She speaks like a soviet communist in american cartoons (about my accent)
7) Goodwill is a result of poor negotiations (q - Pr. Sri)
8) Man should never get too comfortable with women. (q- Anthony)
9) I am not surprised about the content of feedback, I am surprised that people are giving feedbacks this time (q - Zhenya)
What I am surprised that some people are asking for feedback :-) Usually those are men who want to show off))))
10) Borat is an American movie about Americans. But the producer could not really allow himself to tell that directly. That's why he had to pick a random country and it happened to be Kazakhstan.

I am thinking that people appreciate the person in line with their own values...And there is no point to be beautiful and smart if you are surrownded by people who are not up to the level to understand that. Only some people who are equal to that are able to estimate the amount of labor per every achievment....

Indian style (Diwali)

ready to become a Bollywood actress :-)

we ourselves create our own universe

И Бог шагнул в пустоту. И Он поглядел вокруг и сказал — Я одинок. Сотворю себе мир (Джонсон)
Well, everything what we have is the result of our own decisions + some element of probablilty (white noise or random error).
The problem is that we can't predict the future, we can make only backword estimations and realise (if we have enough information to get that) if we made a right or wrong decision.